Seattle Dreamin'

Oh, Marshawn, you'll always hold a special place in my heart! Thanks, Beast Mode!

Well, if the recent weather comparisons (low 40s-50s, and misty, rainy, dreary here vs sunny, warm, and high 70s/80s there), new puppy pals, and general missing my family alone haven't made me want to take a lil trip to my hometown, then hearing from my mama last night that Nana is not doing well, and that the end is probably coming sooner rather than later definitely has. It's strange being so far away from the world in which I spent most of my life. I lived in Seattle for all of my childhood and good chunk of my adulthood, obviously until I moved to NY. And the move is SO BIG and the distance is SO GREAT (about the same mileage, as the crow flies from NY to Seattle--2,852 mi--or to London--3,459 mi. Now I'm not discounting that 600 miles since it's about the distance from NY to the Ohio/Indiana border, but in an airplane, it's only about 45 minutes.) that getting back there is tough.

Recently, I've been feeling homesick. Or maybe it's just family-sick. Mama-sick. I've been so busy here and just finished up my first NY show. And, really, the first show that I can remember where I had no family in the audience. I KNOW it's stupid and there was no way that I expected them to come, but it was a little strange not to have a night when my parents were coming to the show. Especially seeing everyone else hugging their families... Sorry, just a bit womp, womp today, I guess...

Anyway, then I see things like Beast Mode on my Amazon page, and TWO people rocking Hawks baseball caps on my commute to rehearsal last night, and... cue homesickness. Just really wanting to be there for la mama, and obviously see Nana again. I'd love to say goodbye one more time. And I know that was the plan for my trip back for Christmas, but it doesn't feel like enough. I want another chance to see her. It's just hard. I'm doing what I love, I wouldn't trade it for the WORLD, and I wouldn't wanna be living anywhere else, I just wish NY was physically closer to Seattle.

I'm sure it's not helping my homesickness/mama-sickness with knowing that Dad and Pam are coming into town tomorrow, so I get to see them. PLUS, yesterday was May the Fourth Be With You, today is Cinco de Mayo, tomorrow is la mama's birthday (the big 6-1!), AND Sunday is Mother's Day! Pretty much all things that make me super love and miss and wanna spend time with one of my best friends in the world. Crossing my fingers that tomorrow she gets the BEST GIFTIE IN THE WORLD: a brand new fur buddy! What an amazing birthday prezzie THAT would be!

Anyway, just missing the mountains, and the sound, and the greenery, and the people of my hometown a lot today.